Acceptance

Acceptance

There will never be enough time,
To tell you what I want you to know.
Because words are confusing and easily forgotten
As fragile and fleeting as snow

I’ve said the same things over and over again,
Hoping you’ll hear the whispers behind my words.
But the feelings seem lost in time,
Left to rot in a maze of heartstrings and cords

Pain, love, trust, pleasure, mindlessly so
I’ve given and taken from you.
Lost and found with you
Wanted and forced from you too.

I don’t regret what has happened, and I will never forget
Those things we shared in darkest night,
Between kisses, between moans,
In soft bed covers, and ebony light.

Now, you’ll keep me at arm’s length,
And the reasons why are many and obvious
Yet when your mind wonders
Your head still turns for that familiar kiss

I’ll miss those moments of clarity
In my heart sits sadness beyond description
You’re only trying to protect you and, in a way, me
And I do understand your reasons

This isn’t something I want to do:
Already established that my selfish streak runs hot
Never mind that I made my own bed
Don’t care if I have to lie in it or not

Maybe I used you, maybe I fixed you
Maybe I did none or all of the above
Your scent sends shivers down my spine
But beneath the overtone of lust, will always be love